So, I’ve kept a pretty low profile for the past few months since I had Ellianna. It’s been so busy around here and I’m sure anyone who’s had 3 in less than 3 years can agree that it’s not easy. So, what’s changed? Everything and nothing! I was a mom before and I’m still a mom, but I’m busier and needed more. I feel like there are days when I’m screaming inside because I need a break and to be alone and other days I can’t get enough of these girls and want them all with me snuggling for the entire day.
As moms, there are so many things that we’re responsible for and have to be good at. I feel like I spend my days moderating my 3 year old and my 16 mo old because learning to share is HARD, and then there are the many tears that I wipe away because sometimes they need to be reminded that naps are important, I play nurse and remind the girls to love one another. On top of being a nurturer and a moderator, I’m also a personal chef for the girls and Ellianna’s only source of food and a house cleaner and educator. I am a storyteller and a singer. I spend time out shopping with all of the girls by myself and that for me is HARD – probably just as hard as it is for the girls to share. There are times when I have to convince myself to leave the house because honestly, to me it’s daunting to think that it’s 0˚ outside and I have to pack up the girls and put them into the carseats one by one – and then repeat that for every stop. . .and honestly sometimes I just don’t want to.
I try to spend late nights working on projects for me or cleaning. But honestly, I am so happy to snuggle with the girls at 8 o’clock and then have a few hours to just sit if I want because sitting is something I rarely get to do during the day. What type of projects? I’m usually designing something or sewing cute little outfits for the girls or doing their laundry.
I have survived 4 months with the three girls and honestly I love it! We get all kinds of comments from people who can’t help themselves when we’re out, but I’m at the point where I make my best effort to smile and think that I’m so lucky and they clearly have no clue what they’re talking about. I get to dance to the Moana soundtrack and sing all of the songs with the girls all day and play dress-up and have tea parties! I love that! I do miss getting out more, and so I’m hoping that once the weather warms up we can get out and take some walks and enjoy the fresh air.
At the end of the day my girls are so smart and amazing and they are my life. I love doing everything for them. Sometimes it’s hard, but everything in life is hard, right? And I feel like that’s what makes us better people and it’s how we learn and grow.
As for work, I am still working, but I’m only taking a very limited number of projects. I work late at night, after the girls are asleep and I don’t have as much time as I used to have, but I really love working, so I can’t stop completely. I have considered looking into teaching classes at a college because that’s why I went to graduate school in the first place. Even if things are quiet right now, the girls are only small once and I know that as they get bigger I can build and grow my business to be really full and busy again. . .but for now I want to be with my girls and help them learn and grow.
Here is my little family back in December – minus Madeline, who is away at school.